Time past so fast....
itz nearly d month of May...
im working part time at upperstar a western restaurant...im at d morning shift but sometimes it feels like im working d morning nite shift..everytime i got bk frm work..my whole body ached..tired but worth d experience =3
many things happened diz few days...
i met bk wit andrew n he introduced me 2 a fren name stanley...
we hang out like omos everyday eversince den...
well andrew didnt changed much in his character but changed alot physically..hahax..
a few weeks ltr...stanley told me he likes me..gasp
dat was cute of him but at dat time i wasnt ready 2 b in a realtionship...
he was super nice n i cn c dat he's rili loyal n all dat...he's kinda cute in a way..but still my heart is still under a heartbroken condition...
eversince my ex came bk everything omos changed...at 1st he told me hates me n wanted a break...but nw..i dun get it...my ex told me he wanted a rekindle n regretted wat he said b4...i was in deep shock though..i didnt expext dat respond...but i didnt put dat in mind...
it made me even more confuse of our status...i realize i didnt wanna hurt myself badly again so i reconfirm our relationship status 2 jz stay as bestfrenz...he kept silent but still calls me dear...i assume he got used 2 calling me dat...but still he tells me dat he still misses me...
i cnt do anything...i cnt hate...all i cn do is jz treat him as a fren who needs company...but i rather hang out wit stanley...he's much more of a calm n steady person...he's not doz type who throws tantrum..
im not sure wat i did...all i knw is dat everytime stanley asked me 4 a chance itz oways not d rite time...i rejected him..n yeah i knw it hurts him...2 tell d truth i do kinda like him...nvr a guy ever treated me dat nice n humble b4...i realized im not perfect enuf 4 him...im scared dat i might hurt him 1 day cuz he's jz 2 nice...n im like d opposite of him...although he denies it...but still i feel guilty...im jz not ready....i actually thought he cud wait till my heart heals...but 2 late he found someone dat he loves already...
i was shock at 1st n confused...cuz i still rmb dat he said he wanna wait..he's nw with clover...he told he had a choice of either 2 b with me or clover when he wanted 2 ask a chance frm me..after i rejected him he told me he started with clover...hell yeah i was shocked..
lukz like i dun nd 2 wait anymore..it shows dat we both hv no fate since he chose dat path of being with her...it was rili sweet 2 c dem both 2gather =3 like 2 birds pirching on a tree chirping all day long...i wonder when will dat b my turn? i wonder if i might find my mr right? i hope destiny cud lead diz path of mine...i wish everything wud turned out fine...although im stil under confusion but i guessed working might stop me from thinking 2 much..
sigh..
